Week 17 and I've moved house!

So yay, I decided to take the plunge and get a bigger piece of land with more prims, so yeah I'm groovin my ass at my new house

I couldn't figure what to have as week 17's shuttle gray so I hunted the marketplace (and bitched that it NEEDS a colour filter search option) and found these sexy heels!

Just to show you my pretty front garden with no lumps and bumps!

Credits:
Shoes @ KKBB (10L)
Dress @ Halcali (group gift, no sign up fee)
Hair @ lamb!
Skin @ [Atomic]

A Dandy Week (9)!

Let me just get your faces and rub it in it for a moment, I'm just reaching the end of a 5 day weekend! And let me just say: Thursday was GLORIOUS! For winter weather it hit 15-17 degrees celsius and I went out in some lovely summer wear!
So as week 9's colour for the 52 weeks of colour challenge was Dandelion I decided, stuff winter let's hurry to springs and summers!!

Saff/B xx

Credits:
Dress & Skirt @ *G Field* (past gift)
Skin @ Style By Kira (past gift, lots of freebies!)
Hair @ lamb (free, tinted)
Lashes @ Dutch Touch (past gift)

Going Back to Black

Usually I'll write a cutesy little story to go along with my blog post but the Back2Black event begins tomorrow (11th) and I'm blogging 22769's item (is a full outfit but I loved the jumper most) which will be at the event.

Back2Black is an event to highlight mental health illnesses.
Since I was about 11 or 12 I've had mood fluctuations, who doesn't at that age? But I lived in a household where my sister suffered from severe depression due to bullying and anorexia because at 7st people called her fat.
She got better, thankfully, though I don't remember much of that time, I don't remember anyone telling me she had depression or anorexia, I just guessed.. I stayed at the school my sister was bullied at while she dropped out and moved to a private school, she got better but when I was 17 she had a nasty breakup, now we have a very open household and I wandered into the bathroom while she was in the bath. The only thing I can describe is one of the photographs at Auschwitz, where the bodies lay there dead and emaciated but what lay in the bath was my living, breathing, skeletal sister, all I could smell was the overpowering smell of pear drops, also known as ketones, ketones are produced when your body starts digesting it's own fat because you have no nutrients coming in or left with you..
I won't lie, I started screaming at her, I don't cope the way my parents did by weedling her to eat, I just would scream and scream, one day I threatened if she didn't eat we'd play suffragettes and I'd force feed her..

22769 Back2Black HomeDress and Willow Maxi Skirt

I digress. Growing up in that situation probably screwed me over a little bit. Just under a year ago I started using the app "My Fitness Pal", I weighed myself obsessively, if I hadn't lost weight I'd not eat, I went from being a healthy 9st 10/11 to 8st 12, still a healthy weight but at my height (5tf 7) I looked terrible. Peter told me, my friends told me and my family told me.
Along with this I was having violent mood swings, honestly I don't remember much of this.. I ask Pete now and again what I was like and he tells me I was vile, unbearable and difficult.. I guess I must have been. He begged me to get help but wouldn't force me to go, he said if I needed help I had to go myself.

One day I finished work early and went through my university campus on the bus.. inside I was tearing myself apart, do I stay on the bus or do I get off and walk into the doctors?
I stayed on the bus..
The next day I walked into the doctors and broke down to a nurse who hurridly made me an appointment with the doctor. When the doctor asked me what made me come to get help I told her
"I got let out of placement early"

I was already on low dose tricyclic antidepressants for my migraines so she upped them to work as both migraine relief and anti-depressants, the first two weeks were murder, my moods flew off the handle but slowly I got better.
I was still trying to lose weight though.. then, when my housemates were out the house I was running from the shower to my room and I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror, dropping my towel I looked at myself and all I could think was
"WHERE the hell have my boobs gone?!"

22769 Valentines Store Hunt

Sadly, that was my turning point, not people's concerns, not the doctor, not my family nor the love of my life
My boobs, I had fried eggs where I once had some nice teacups
Peter, dog and I went on holiday to Cornwall for a week and I stopped using the app.
I did a traithlon in May.
In September I helped Pete get diagnosed with depression (work related) I supported him through finding the job of his dreams, moving 80 miles from me and now he is detoxing from his antidepressants. I'm still on mine and still have low moods but I feel so much better now.

22769 Zombie Popcorn Hunt Gift

The one thing I can say if you find yourself in this situation is seek help, don't go it alone, so many people care enough to see you get better.

Anyway.. credits for the pictures:

Pic 1
Jumper by 22769 @ Back2Black (150L)
MESH Skirt @ Willow (50L)
Hair @ lamb
Boots @ Decoy (285L)

Pic 2
Whole Outfit (inc shoes & tights) @ 22769 (Valentines Hunt)
Hair by Exile @ TDR - old item

Pic 3
Dress @ 22769 (Zombie Popcorn Hunt)
Hair by Exile @ TDR - old item
Socks @  a piece of candy (1L)
Shoes @ DECO (old FLF)

B/Saff xx

My lovely new skirt!

This morning was wonderful, usually when the owls flock through the roof of the great hall one never usually lands in front of Saffie, tearing open the parcel that had landed in front of her she found a great pile of pink silk with lots of oomph and fluff to give it shape, holding it up to see she saw a beautiful skirt and out fell a note

"Something to wear for the Valentine's Ball maybe?
~ Love, Mother"

Hurridly she finished her toast and gulped her tea and took full pelt up to the female dorms in Ravenclaw tower. Shimmying her dull school skirt down she hitched the beautiful mixture of pink silk and taffeta over her hips, it fit perfectly, mother was always good at sewing. Unfortuately there were no full mirrors in Ravenclaw tower and Saffie decided she couldn't risk an accio charm to summon one for fear of it breaking so instead she spun around, watching as the fabric billowed out around her.

Unfortunately spinning for too long can make one fairly dizzy so with a heavy head that still spun she replaced the beautiful skirt with her school skirt

and ran to the little witches room to have a look at the earrings she had found that morning at the bottom of her trunk, mother always packed little bits and bobs, she said it was to glam up her uniform but saffie really knew mother wanted her to make friends and maybe the glitz would attract her some attention.

Smiling faintly at her reflection she decided that yes the earrings, though mismatched, did look good and then realised she was late for divinations and ran!

Saff/B xx

MESH Skirt @ The Vinyl Cafe (1L daily dollarbie - 25L group join fee)
Earrings by Dark Mouse @ The Love Gatcha Event (25L a go, I won 2 sets of earrings)
Hair @ lamb
boots @ *G Field*

Make Up

Ok, so I shall be honest with you, in RL I am the queen and mistress of applying my own make up, so much so that I can do it at 5.30am before I begin an early shift at the hospital... so maybe I'm not up to the standards of one Auxiliary Nurse I met who had mastered bright pink, glittery lipstick and false eyelashes but I digress.

I departed the world of SL just before viewer 2 came into being and upon my return I was baffled by the "make up layer" that some fashion blogs were cooing over and I decided it just wasn't for me, I was an old school lover of skins and that was that.

Until now! For those like me who are bewildered by SL blusher, mystified by SL mascara and stupefied by SL shadow of the eye variety then keep on reading. If, though, you are "down with da kids," as our dear Mr. David Cameron would say, on the how2 of SL make up then maybe you could read on to appreciate the deal I've found?

Obviously the names of each make up are under each picture and I thought I'd include an au naturel Saffie as a comparison. Click on the picture to get a close up view of all the make ups or have a gander at my flickr photostream

And do you want to know the best part? All these make ups are ONLY 1L on the Marketplace from ee.!

The original skin I used was Sayuri @ Tuli
Hair @ Lamb
Dress @ 20.FIVE - 25L, actually.. ALL their stuff is 25L and very cute too!

Saff/B